Sunday, June 16, 2013

Thinking About The Weeks To Come


Over the past few weeks I have struggled to come to terms with my feelings about my upcoming surgery. How does one prepare for something this massive? I thought I was prepared when I went in for my first surgery back in 2009. Somehow, I don't think it helped. For all of my Boy Scout preparedness, nothing really prepares you for waking up inside the ICU after a month-long coma. I can't think of anything that prepares you for letting go of your career of over 20 years and reconciling yourself to never being able to lift more than twenty pounds, ever again. So many things that now, may change. 


So what am I thinking about? Where does my mind go during this time of preparation and anxious overload?

I am thinking about all the experiences that happened during the coma. My extended walk-about in the world I struggle to explain. I have hesitated to write about that time simply because of one comment that was posted to my blog. I think that there is still a fair bit I would like to share, so bear with me as I delve into a few of these stories over the next few months.



6 comments:

  1. Sharing our stories is one way we heal. One way we make ourselves vulnerable and open. One way we may help to heal others. Don't ever be afraid to share your stories when you are ready.
    I've battled those blogger creeps on my own blog...just mean people. Don't let them get to you. Love you Alex.

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    1. Thank you Kathy. I agree. It is strange how much this one particular comment got to me. Has more to do with family-of-origin stuff and that feeling of being discounted/disregarded... I am still surprised at how much it affected me.

      Thank you for your kind words.

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  2. Write it for you, we will come along for support.
    As I tell my kids, I have your back, always.

    AS for the "negative Nellie" --- there is always one.

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    1. That is the plan Meredith! I'll keep trying to draw these stories out into the light.

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  3. Have you so in mind today and will be thinking of you tomorrow; so many
    folks will be in that room with you. Just hope there's room for the doctor!
    Look forward to hearing the recovery progress report. These photos are
    splendid, Alex. Keep them coming. And the stories....always.

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    1. Thank you Cly. I welcome all of your thoughts and suggestions on any of these bits of writings. And as always, thank you for thinking of me.

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